This is how I currently feel. No, I don’t feel like a pie.
I’ll go back to the beginning to put this into context.
When I began writing about vampires, I knew it would be a difficult field to write in for several reasons. Firstly, it’s been done and done. And done some more. So that was a problem – how do you write something original based on an idea that’s been rehashed so many times? Secondly, would an agent even be interested? I chose to put these concerns aside and write what I wanted to write, what I loved. I just had to.
Now, I’ve come to the querying stage. And as I expected, I’ve been rejected a few times. But not because of the writing itself.
Which brings me back to the pie.
Imagine you’d baked a pie. Everyone who tasted it said the same thing – crust is perfect, looks great, smells fantastic but the filling isn’t something they can stomach. I baked a beautiful pie but filled it with Nightshade berries. Or everyone’s allergic to apples. Whatever.
My point is, each rejection I’ve received says essentially the same thing: writing is good, content is not something they can market. Love the voice, not the vampires. You’re a great writer, but the subject is overdone.
How do you deal with that? Knowing that something you have such passion for has been so done that it’s unlikely any agent will want to touch it for a long, long time…when you’ve put as much work in as all writers know goes into a manuscript, one that was a real idea, not a first, crappy manuscript that you never show anybody (those are on my shelf), well, it’s hard. It’s hard to accept that many, many others got there before you did.
So I choose to see this as a positive thing. See, I can change what I write. There are other things I love. It’s not a ‘your writing is terrible, for the sake of the paper, please, just put the pen down’. It just means I have more work to do. Yeah, it’s saddening to find something you’ve put your heart and soul into just can’t find a place in the market. Not yet, anyway. But at least I can write. I have hands, a laptop and people who’ve told me they like my style. And I’m immensely proud of that.
I’m going to keep querying Bloodborn. I have faith that someone, somewhere, will still love vampires as much as I do. I’m not daft – I know that the market has been saturated. But what can a writer do but write what they love?
Of course, some of you who’ve read my excerpt may be thinking:
Which is cool. You’re entitled to your opinion. I’m just going to keep going, keep writing my new idea and keep querying. What else can a writer do?
Thanks for reading,